Susan Marie Hendershot

I miss hearing you say "Annie tell me the story about when you first saw me". How you loved to hear about the day you were born and how Dad, Wiggy and I went to the hospital to see you and Mom. How upset I was when we arrived only to find we werent allowed inside the hospital to see you. So we stood outside on the front lawn looking up at the tall brick building searching the windows for our new baby sister. There you were all bundled up in Moms arms held in the window for us to see. Tears filled my eyes and a sobbed as my shoulders shaked uncontrollably. The nurse seeing two little girls holding the hands of their father crying to see thier Mother and new baby sister, said ok they can come up but only for a moment. We rushed inside the hospital, up the elevator and to the large double doors, where we stood anxiously awaiting to meet you. Minutes felt like hours and 31 years later, I still can see every detail of the white double doors, that seperated us. At once they opened and in front of me was Mom, in her arms, a bundle of blankets. She tipped her arms forward and leaned torwards me, as I stood on my tiptoes I could see hair peeking up from the blankets, there you were, all wrapped up nothing but your sweet little face peering out from the blanket. You were asleep, your eyes closed ever so lightly, whisper light eyelashes lined those big beautiful eyes. You were beautiful, the most perfect person I had ever seen. At that very moment I loved you and knew life was a miracle. You were the prettiest baby I had ever seen, my baby sister, Birdie! I don't remember how many times you asked to hear that story, but it was your favorite, it is mine too!

Love you baby sister! I miss you, and our stories. 

I've been thinking alot about you lately and I always google your name when I think about you and I found this....it's so nice to have! I really miss your great big smile and that laugh you had, you had the greatest personality. Your body may be gone but I will carry you in my head, my heart, and my soul<3<3<3

Well my little Birdie, what can I say I MISS YOU MORE AND MORE EVERYDAY! I awoke that frightening night to find something missing call it moms intuision, but it was an aunts nightmare with all the despare, you were no longer here, and I am missing you everyday of my life! I will forever miss you my sweet young lady!!!! Forever in my heart!!!

Around Spring time every year since you have been gone, my heart begins to ache. It isnt until the middle of May that I figure out why my heart is hurting so much. The green leaves, warm sun, smell of summer in the air all triggers the pain of loosing you all over again. I find myself starting to mention you more with mom, dad, & wiggy, I find myself crying again....

Wiggy is getting married next month, & all I can think about is how much that empty chair is going to stick out to all of us. Your suposed to be there, you are suposed to know AnnaLyse, I should be able to talk to my very best friend about how stupid everyone is being around me.

I miss you, and I hurt so badly even still. Just when I think its been 7yrs the hurt has faded, BAM....no it hasnt Ive just became really good at tucking so far inside myself that it can't breath. But as soon as the green leaves, warm sun, and the smell of summer fills the air, here I am with my heart breaking all over again.

Oh God please remember every little detail about our Suzie, keep her safe in your memory that you might bring her back to us someday. And God help me to be the best person I can be, serving you, honoring you, & doing your will always. Knowing that you are the light, the way, & our salvation through the one whom you sent forth Jesus Christ. Amen

Boy we had some fun times.  I remember when I was in sixth grade you came to my birthday party, you put your pants on backwards and danced around to cris-cross.  The summer before we went swimming at my grandmas house and of course my high school grad night.  That was fun.  Thank you for being in my life and being a wonderful friend.  I still think of you and visit you quite often.  You are forever in our prayers.  We miss and love you!

Mom & Dad,

It has taken me 7years to stop thinking about my own grief of loosing Suzie to think of yours. I am so very sorry that you lost your baby. I want you to know that I can't even begin to understand the pain you both must feel. I love you both and I am always here for you. I truly am so very sorry for you.

Love,
Annie